1:20 AM

So i am sitting here at 1:20 in the morning and i have decided to get my blog going again. I was so devoted to it last summer, and i want to get back to being devoted to it again. A year has passed since i began this blog, and i have done a poor job at informing you of the happenings in my life. I am sorry for this.... Hopefully i can give you more insight on what is going on with me daily, and the way i feel spirtually. I really enjoyed writing about my spirtual walk, and i hope that whoever reads this gained something from all of my posts on religion, and Christianity. I will be writing more about those same things, and hopefully encouraging fellow believers along the way. 

I dont know who still even gets on this site to read my blog but for those of you who do thanks. I know what i say is not necessarily the most important things in life, nor is it that isightful but at least it gives you one more thing to do so you dont have to do that other thing you dont want to do. 

So this is the first post of many more to come. God Bless!!

One step at a time....

So hold your head up high and know it's not the end of the road
Walk down this beaten path before you pack your things and head home
At the end of the road you'll find what you've been longing for

I know 'cause my feet have the scars to show
I was lost with vague direction and no place to call home

It's time for you to press on
This is not your war
Set your sights to North and press on
This is not your escape
Wash way what they thought of you
Because in this place, we're all as good as dead
...end cycle...

Behind the mask you'll find yourself alone
It's not the end of road for you

Every day is one step. We are called as christians to press on through all of the hard times. We are going to have trials in our lives, and have tough circumstances to over come. We will face death, hardships, depression, loss, money issues, addictions, and much more. God is right there with us the whole way. 

This song above speaks to me. The lyrics just paint a perfect picture about this guy who is lost, but has to press on. He is not meant for what he is experiencing. But at the end of the road he will find what he is long for. It says that the people who have waled the road before have scars on their feet to show their struggles. It fits so perfect to me because i know that i am going to have scared feet, but i am meant for something great. Something indescirbable. 

So one step at a time. I will continue to press on. If i look back at my life my journy has been long, and i have grown so much. It is exciteing to know that i will continue to gorw and learn more about God, and his infinite majesty. So one step at a time i will press on!!

Song.

Underoath

To whom it may concern

Define the great line.

Its Been A While!!!

WOW!!! Well it has been about 20 years since i have been on this thing. A ton of stuff has happened but i am not going to bother writing about all the details that have been going on in my life. There has been some great things, and not so great things. My original thought of this blog was for everyone to get some insight in my life, and for me to share some thoughts on my walk with Christ, and share my personal experiences. SO....I have decided to start writing more often and shareing more about my Walk with Jesus. 

Well to be honest with all of you my walk with jesus has been stagnant as of late. I have not moved forward or backwards. Just kinda sitting in one place. But i do have some stuff to share and hopefully it will relate to someone who reads this blog (if anyone does).

Time and time again we are faced with difficult moral, and ethical decisions. The decision could be small or big, but on Gods scale all moral and ethical decisions are the same. It is so hard to make the correct decision sometimes. Our flesh is screaming out for something. You try to justify it in your mind. You say things like "just this once" or "I promise this is the last time". We tell God that we will never do it again... We have all been there sooooo many times. Well what is the problem? How come its always more than one more time. How come its never the last time? How come we never do it again? I think it comes down to two main reasons. Number one prayer, and number two we are not capable of doing it. 

One: PRAYER PRAYER PRAYER!!!! It brings us closer to God. It is our communication line. The beauty of it is that its not a one way telephone line. He is not just listening. He is also answering our prayers too. He is talking to us all the time. We just dont take the time to slow down and realize it. If we are not talking to our saviour how can we build a relationship with him. We must be relational with our God and he will help us through those hard decisions. 

Two: We simply can not do it. Our human selves are weak minded, and give into the desires of the flesh daily. We need to relay on God. He will come down and give us his strength. He will wrap his arms around us and guide us. So many times we say we are going to stop. Instead we need to surender. It is not about us. It is about him. We will always says. I am going to stop. I will never do that again. It is always about us. If its about us we will always fail. We say things like. I wont let you down God.  He loves us unconditionally. It is not about proving something to him it is the opposite. But that is not what the world teaches. We are used to relying on ourselves, and proving ourselves to everyone. But it is the reverse with God. We cant do it on our own. We must give it all to him. 

So that is my thoughts about some stuff i have been going through lately. I hope you enjoyed it. I will be posting more offten hopefully. Love you guys. 

P.S. I just wanted to say to everyone who reads that God is amazaing and if he is not in your life you should think about asking him to be. He has gieven me an amazing family, amazing girlfriend, amazing friends, and an amazing life. Without him none of it would be poissible. 

I am so blessed

I am sitting here at 3:50 AM and i can not stop thinking about how blessed i am. There are countless things that i can list off that God has blessed me with. I have been adopted into such an amazing family. I have been given countless opertunities. I have been raised to by amazing parents. I have great friends that are suportive. I have gotten the chance to attend college. And i have a beautiful girlfriend who loves her Lord more than she will ever love me. 

So many times we dwell on what we dont have and we forget all the amazing things that God has blessed us with. God is always working in our lives and making it better. We can be so negative and drag others down around us. If we are just positive and focus on how we can benifit the good of others and ourselves we would be so much happier. When you get down just think of the countless ways that God has blessed you. From the weather on that day too the ability to breath and wake up in the morning. God is so vast and infanite and he will always bless us, and even bless us in ways that we do not know. 

Growing up in a imperfect place

Let me start off by saying that in no way is anyone on earth perfect. Everyone has faults. No one can go through life and say that they have never done anything wrong. It is pathetic that the world is full of people who sin, and are filled with guilt and with sin. It is such a dirty place. Sex and lust pollutes the television, and media. The idea of money, and greed is pumped into us to make us think that those things are the answers to life. If you take a step back and look at what the world is you really see how it is filled with aweful things. So as i take a step back i can help by say to myself.....

" WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PLACE!!!"

Why would i just get done talking about how the world is filled with evil, and sin and say it is a beautiful place? It is because without all of this sin and evil there would be no way for God to show us is infinate and extravagant mercy. If the world was full of perfect people and a perfect place then we would not be able to understand that amazing aspect of God. It is so amazing to think about. We hate sin, and evil, but God created it partially so that we can understand him more fully. 

Also in the bible Jesus came to earth to save the lost. He came for the sinners, and tax collectors. He didnt come for the perfect people. He did not come for the people who have it all together. He came for all of us because we are all sinners. We are all those people who do not have it together. Jesus came to save us all. Anyone who accepts him is able to be washed free of that sin and that guilt. 

God loves us unconditionally. I have turned my back on him countless times and he still loves me with all of his heart. I hope that i can love the way he loves. I want to love like that. If ic an love my friends, and family like that then i know that i am doing something right. 

This place of sin, and evil is so beautiful and if you look hard enough you can even see God in the horrible things that happen. He is everywhere and i am so glad that he is always with me. 

"I have not come to call the righteous, but the sinners"- Mark 2:17

Hello Mr. Gump

As I sit here tonight i ponder on the things that i am most looking forword too in my life to come. With out a doubt i have already lived an amazing life and the experiences i have gone through have been extroidanary. God has blessed me in so many ways that i can not even begin to count them. The amazing family that has adopted me, the group of friends that he has surounded me with, the endless opertunities he has blessed me with, and a beautiful women who loves her Lord and savior. These are just a few things that God has blessed me with. It makes me wonder what is in store. What is coming next. Well there are a couple of things that i can not wait to happen. 

I can not wait to own my own house. For a man it is going to be great to come back to MY house. The place where i can hang my hat. It is going to be such a blessing to have a place of my own that i have worked hard for. I am looking forword to buy a place that is a little worn down. It still has that charm. I am looking forword to finding a place like that and  being able to put my blood, sweat, and tears into. A place that has a piece of me with it. I cant wait to be able to go through that experience

One thing that i would love to do in my life is to be my own boss. I would love to own my own business one day. The idea of having something that other people use that you have created is awesome. It would mean alot to say that i have created a product that people could use. It is for sure one of my goals to own my own business. I am not sure what i would do yet. I guess that is for God too decide. But the possibility of owning my own business one day is really exciting. 

This next one is something that i have been looking forword too for a long time. Without a doubt one of the happiest days of my life is the day that i get married. It will be the day that you get to spend the rest of your life with your best friend. The Lord has made marraige one of the greatest gifts to us. I can not wait to experience that. I know that when i see my wife open those doors and walk down the isle i will have the biggest smile on my face. I will be able to invite the most important person in my life into my life. I will be able to share all of me with her. I can not wait for that great day to come. 

Even though getting married is going to be without a doubt one of the greatest days of my life there is going to be one more day that is going to top that. The day that i have my first child. I dont think there is anything greater than having your own children. Someone who is totally dependent on you. You get to raise them and show them all you have learned. That is going to be the happiest day of my life. 

These are just a few milestones i can not wait to reach in my life time. I hope that God allows me to accomplish them all. My life has been awesome. I have only lived 21 years of it. I love that God has planned everything out for me. Nothing in my life has happened by chance. I love that so much. God is amazing and i am so blessed to be able to be his servent.

SOOOOO READY TO BE DONE!!!

Hey there friends. I am not going to lie, the semester is coming to an end, and I could not be more excited. School is just so long and tireing. I know that so many people say that when you get out of school you want to go back. I know that it is probably just me being young and naive. But i am ready to be done. Don't get me wrong. I love college. I love the experience i am getting here, and all of the amazing people i am meeting. I am loving staying up late, and doing random things. I love not having that much money and wondering how i am going to eat the next day because i spent my money on something that is completely pointless. I love all of that stuff. BUT..... I hate waking up and going to a class and hearing a professor ramble on about non sense for an hour. I hate having the pressure of getting a good grade because that is what defines your life. I hate all of that supid crap. I hate sitting in class and stareing at the clock and watching it tick by so slow. I hate dealing with stupid advisors that dont really have any good adivce for you. I hate all of that stuff. So i cant wait to be done with that. After going to school for the majority of my life, i am ready to move on. I am ready to get a job, and start persueing things i am really passionate about. Lets face it, i am not that pssionate about school. I am ready to buy a house, and hopefully start a family one day. I am ready to see new challanges that God is going to have me face. I am just ready for that next phase of my life. Thanks for listening to me ramble on about how i hate teachers that ramble on. lol. 

In Christ....