Put out into deep waters....

So many times we want to do things are way. We have been doing things for a certain way for so long, and it has worked for us so what is the point of doing it differently. It rarely occurs to us that there could be a different better way to do things. We always think our way is best, and never consider other options. Most of the time we over look options because of how difficult, and trying they might be. God does not call us to do the same thing over and over again. He wants us to do things his way and usually that way involves getting out of our comfort zone, and doing things that we normally wouldnt do. Doing things that dont necessairly make sense. Peter, and the disciples had been fishing all day, jesus said to cast out their nets one more time. Peter thought that this was so stupid, but he did it anyway, and a bounty of fish was yielded. So much fish it almost tiped over the boat. Then jesus asks peter to walk out onto water with him. I mean how much more crazy can you get. 

Next time you might feel uncomfortable or that you are doing something crazy, there is a good chance you are right where God wants you to be. God wants us to cast out our nets into deep waters, and he will reward us.

Bottom of the Glass

So as i sit here at 1:20 in the morning i think to myself about many different issues. One that crossed my mind and i thought it would be good to write about is how bad we are as humans. WE are so stupid, and helpless without God. When we sin we are to ashamed to run to the one who is going to love us first. We try to hide our sin, and our guilt. There is so much we do wrong. Once upon a time i heard one of my teachers say that we are like the bottom of a coke glass. All the extra stuff that was left over mixed in with spit and bacteria. That is what we are. That image stuck with me so well for some reason. I am constantly reminded of how true that image is everyday. Everyday I mess up, and i just reconfirm every thing about being the bottom of the coke glass. But no matter what God is always there to pick me back up. He loves me so much, and has done so much for me. I am so greatful for how much he loves me inspite of how bad i treat him. I am in love with my savior who will love me no matter what i do. It is so comforting to know that he will never leave me or forsake me. I hope that he can use me in many way to further his kingdom. 

In Christ...

Time Travel

A great movie is back to the future. I love it when they get in that awesome delorian with the gullwing doors and they time travel. Well i am going to let you have a chance to fly through time with me. No we will not be getting into an awesome car with cool doors, but we will be looking at an old entry in my journal. So here goes nothing. 

June 6th 2008

Heather is such a blessing in my life. I pray that God takes us on a journey that is fullfilling to him and that his good and perfect plan is worked out through us. I have kept God the main priority in my life and at the forefront of Heather and I's relationship. All the signs say to persue this relationship so that is what i am going to do. I just want God to guide us and direct us. I want him to walk hand in hand with us. Thank you God for someone who loves you more than me. Help me stay strong Lord. Help me be the spirtual leader i need to be. All i seem to think about or write about is the God- fearing women in my life. I have shared things with her i have told no one else. I have opened my heart to her in many ways. Thank you God for everything. I know i must trust you with everything. Guide me, leade me, make me stronger, work in me Lord. I want to be yours!!

Well there you go. That is a look into my life almost a year ago. If you know me now you know that i Heather and I are still together and trying to glorify God in everything we do. I still give so much praise to him and he is all i can ever want. 

1:20 AM

So i am sitting here at 1:20 in the morning and i have decided to get my blog going again. I was so devoted to it last summer, and i want to get back to being devoted to it again. A year has passed since i began this blog, and i have done a poor job at informing you of the happenings in my life. I am sorry for this.... Hopefully i can give you more insight on what is going on with me daily, and the way i feel spirtually. I really enjoyed writing about my spirtual walk, and i hope that whoever reads this gained something from all of my posts on religion, and Christianity. I will be writing more about those same things, and hopefully encouraging fellow believers along the way. 

I dont know who still even gets on this site to read my blog but for those of you who do thanks. I know what i say is not necessarily the most important things in life, nor is it that isightful but at least it gives you one more thing to do so you dont have to do that other thing you dont want to do. 

So this is the first post of many more to come. God Bless!!

One step at a time....

So hold your head up high and know it's not the end of the road
Walk down this beaten path before you pack your things and head home
At the end of the road you'll find what you've been longing for

I know 'cause my feet have the scars to show
I was lost with vague direction and no place to call home

It's time for you to press on
This is not your war
Set your sights to North and press on
This is not your escape
Wash way what they thought of you
Because in this place, we're all as good as dead
...end cycle...

Behind the mask you'll find yourself alone
It's not the end of road for you

Every day is one step. We are called as christians to press on through all of the hard times. We are going to have trials in our lives, and have tough circumstances to over come. We will face death, hardships, depression, loss, money issues, addictions, and much more. God is right there with us the whole way. 

This song above speaks to me. The lyrics just paint a perfect picture about this guy who is lost, but has to press on. He is not meant for what he is experiencing. But at the end of the road he will find what he is long for. It says that the people who have waled the road before have scars on their feet to show their struggles. It fits so perfect to me because i know that i am going to have scared feet, but i am meant for something great. Something indescirbable. 

So one step at a time. I will continue to press on. If i look back at my life my journy has been long, and i have grown so much. It is exciteing to know that i will continue to gorw and learn more about God, and his infinite majesty. So one step at a time i will press on!!

Song.

Underoath

To whom it may concern

Define the great line.

Its Been A While!!!

WOW!!! Well it has been about 20 years since i have been on this thing. A ton of stuff has happened but i am not going to bother writing about all the details that have been going on in my life. There has been some great things, and not so great things. My original thought of this blog was for everyone to get some insight in my life, and for me to share some thoughts on my walk with Christ, and share my personal experiences. SO....I have decided to start writing more often and shareing more about my Walk with Jesus. 

Well to be honest with all of you my walk with jesus has been stagnant as of late. I have not moved forward or backwards. Just kinda sitting in one place. But i do have some stuff to share and hopefully it will relate to someone who reads this blog (if anyone does).

Time and time again we are faced with difficult moral, and ethical decisions. The decision could be small or big, but on Gods scale all moral and ethical decisions are the same. It is so hard to make the correct decision sometimes. Our flesh is screaming out for something. You try to justify it in your mind. You say things like "just this once" or "I promise this is the last time". We tell God that we will never do it again... We have all been there sooooo many times. Well what is the problem? How come its always more than one more time. How come its never the last time? How come we never do it again? I think it comes down to two main reasons. Number one prayer, and number two we are not capable of doing it. 

One: PRAYER PRAYER PRAYER!!!! It brings us closer to God. It is our communication line. The beauty of it is that its not a one way telephone line. He is not just listening. He is also answering our prayers too. He is talking to us all the time. We just dont take the time to slow down and realize it. If we are not talking to our saviour how can we build a relationship with him. We must be relational with our God and he will help us through those hard decisions. 

Two: We simply can not do it. Our human selves are weak minded, and give into the desires of the flesh daily. We need to relay on God. He will come down and give us his strength. He will wrap his arms around us and guide us. So many times we say we are going to stop. Instead we need to surender. It is not about us. It is about him. We will always says. I am going to stop. I will never do that again. It is always about us. If its about us we will always fail. We say things like. I wont let you down God.  He loves us unconditionally. It is not about proving something to him it is the opposite. But that is not what the world teaches. We are used to relying on ourselves, and proving ourselves to everyone. But it is the reverse with God. We cant do it on our own. We must give it all to him. 

So that is my thoughts about some stuff i have been going through lately. I hope you enjoyed it. I will be posting more offten hopefully. Love you guys. 

P.S. I just wanted to say to everyone who reads that God is amazaing and if he is not in your life you should think about asking him to be. He has gieven me an amazing family, amazing girlfriend, amazing friends, and an amazing life. Without him none of it would be poissible. 

I am so blessed

I am sitting here at 3:50 AM and i can not stop thinking about how blessed i am. There are countless things that i can list off that God has blessed me with. I have been adopted into such an amazing family. I have been given countless opertunities. I have been raised to by amazing parents. I have great friends that are suportive. I have gotten the chance to attend college. And i have a beautiful girlfriend who loves her Lord more than she will ever love me. 

So many times we dwell on what we dont have and we forget all the amazing things that God has blessed us with. God is always working in our lives and making it better. We can be so negative and drag others down around us. If we are just positive and focus on how we can benifit the good of others and ourselves we would be so much happier. When you get down just think of the countless ways that God has blessed you. From the weather on that day too the ability to breath and wake up in the morning. God is so vast and infanite and he will always bless us, and even bless us in ways that we do not know.